Wouldn’t it be kind of cool to actually start every year off again, fresh? Pretend you can carefully pick and choose the the things you’re taking with you, leaving the rest in a psychic trash bin? We’d probably make that even more of a disaster, if we had the choice! As it is, we just lurch ahead, freighted with all the crap we’ve gathered along the way. Some of us learn from it. Some of us just bang our heads.
This will begin the seventh year of writing this blog! It’s insane. I can’t even remember the original reason I started it, but I think it was to chronicle the trip I took across Africa with Jonathan in early 2007. It was a rally, of old junker cars. You weren’t supposed to spend over £100 on a car and all cars were donated in Bamako (or Banjul) at the finish. Our team was “Ex Marks the Spot.” Jonathan is my ex, obviously. We kept separate blogs of our adventures with the Mauritanian army, the djinns of Morocco, the groove of Mali, and of course, that indescribable entity, the Sahara. And our wheezing yet gallantly tenacious 1984 Volvo station wagon. We are both lucky we didn’t kill each other.
Then, instead of letting the blog slip away, I found I liked writing it, and tried to highlight traveling for essential oils, investigating what certain terms mean, like “organic”, “fair-trade,” “endangered,” “attars,” “natural” and “ethically grown.”
I’ve done pretty well with that, and the only trouble, actually, is that I can’t seem to travel enough these days to investigate new oils. Between the enormous amount of energy (and money) I’ve invested in Oman, and the move in New York, traipsing around Madagascar has been out of reach, no matter how many times I almost get there. When I go chasing something nowadays, it’s usually to India, where even though I will flail about, I know where to go to find sandalwood, agarwood, jasmine. Or I go to Southeast Asia.
The blog also became a catharsis throughout my Omani journey. The first year in Oman I was attached to someone who was helping me, and the second year I was helping him. The third year with him went from one extreme to the other with a sad final result. My process and journey have been very organic, in that I didn’t come with a plan, and the plan that eventually unfolded changed several times, as possibilities leapt up. The first year was quite blind, actually. Like feeling my way alone down a dark passage. The second year I was snatched up by the Diwan of Royal Court Affairs, and the third year, it has been my own vision and plans. It’s still unfolding organically.
The first year I could still write about what was happening with me, and Oman, and frankincense, and the frangipani enfleurage, and even my friend, although I referred to him obliquely, of course. I was blindly in love with Oman then.
The second year, with the attachment to the Diwan being the biggest thing in my life, I couldn’t even whisper about it. I was floating on air for the first part of that association, and gradually became disillusioned over the year. But it was not the Diwan itself that disillusioned me; and it was nothing to do with His Majesty, whom I adore. It was the antics of the Minister at the time, and some of the people attached to him, wallah. It’s no secret any longer. I have told a few people about it, in Salalah, because the episode didn’t leave a good taste in my mouth. It’s when I became less blind, although still in love with Oman. Since it took up most of the year, and was excruciating in its devolution, the only loyalty I feel is toward His Majesty and his Diwan, not the (ex) Minister, his wife or his facilitator. Course, can’t write details, even though that Minister is no longer at his post. The “Frankincense Revolution” saw to that. I resigned from the project and delivered my letter to his office 10 days before he had to stand down.
This past year I wrote less, as my personal posts became fodder for people with bad intentions. Combine that with the discretion needed to not mention people, and therefore situations which could lead to the guessing of those same people. Back on my own, supposedly with my original guy, after a couple of months I realized that Americans don’t need sponsors. That set me free, although the ramifications are still shaking things up. Can’t write too much about that though, too new, too fresh.
I do enjoy writing this blog. It’s hard to say why. I don’t get a lot of comments, and I’m not sure how many people read it. Someone does. Hi There! Although I do occasionally go off on a political rant, this is not meant to be a commentary on social issues, even though I obviously have plenty of opinions. It’s a personal blog, for someone whose personal life is largely her company and related things, like looking for sandalwood oil. But it gives me a sense of satisfaction. I thought perhaps it was time to stop, but I really don’t want to.
I do hope that this year, the fourth one in Oman and the seventh one for AbsoluteTrygve, will have some interesting entries on certain oils and flowers I’ve got my eye on, in a couple of places I’ve been salivating over. And I hope to finally be able to chronicle my progress with Enfleurage Middle East, without incurring the wrath or envy of those nearby.